Well, us buying ex out of his share of the house isn't going to happen.
I only qualify for a hundred thousand dollar mortgage and I need to qualify for a hundred and fifty thousand one (what is left on the mortgage to pay). My parents don't want to put all their money into a shakey investment. I can't blame them.
But anyway, now I am feeling depressed and angry at ex. I tried not to get my hopes up high about staying in my house, but nevertheless I did. It just really pisses me off that I have to sell the house and live godknowswhere while throwing away a lot of money in rent. All the while he got to buy a nice house, in a nice neighborhood, with a big yard with the ow and they still manage to afford all the extras, like vacations, recreation and an expensive swing set for the kids. It just feels like I keep losing and he keeps winning. Where is the fairness in that?
I just feel like nothing good is going to happen in my life again. I lived my dream...A wonderful husband, 2 wonderful kids...an intact family, a nice neighborhood, and a sense of security. Now that has been ripped out from under me. It really bothers me that the ow gets to enjoy all of this now.
I am thankful I have my children. However, I just feel like such a failure sometimes as their mother. I can't even protect them from all of this crap.
I hope my house sells fast in a way, I am just so tired of having to keep it perfectly clean for the market. I have enough on my plate as it is.
