Well, today things have taken a turn that I hadn't expected. Unfortunately, a friend of mine convinced me to start "snooping" again and I read many emails between H and the OW. Several times a week he sends her long, gushy love letters. So thankful and grateful that they found one another - so in love - perfect match etc. etc. In one (dated a month after they met and only five dates!) he mentioned that she would one day be his bride. Then, I found some very, very graphic sexual emails. Just like porn - about the sex between them. He wrote her this long fantasy email with every detail described. She responded in kind. So, he's found someone who likes to talk and act dirty, which isn't my cup of tea. He wrote in one of his notes to her - something along the lines of finally finding someone sophisticated and brilliant who is also wild sexually. From what I've learned, she's certainly not sophisticated and brilliant, but is obviously willing to do whatever it takes to hold on to him. So, now I feel like I need to pull back. We've had a couple of friendly visits, but I believe that he needs to see what life is like without me. Will she be able to fill the holes that are left if I'm not available? Unlikely. And maybe that will help him come to his senses. If not, maybe the sexual aspect of their relationship is more important to him. Very, very depressed today.
