Tjs-I could suggest a couple of books to read but dont know if your a religious person. I bought the book "Hope For The Seperated" By Gary Chapman. It helped me to answer some questions and to give me some hope. I am also Ordering a book called "Broken Heart on Hold" by Linda Rooks. This book tells about her struggles and how she found hope when there wasnt any. I am willing to work towards trying all that I can to save my marriage and I believe you are too. I am going to list a few websites you can look at if your interested. http://www.brokenheartonhold.com/index.shtml, http://www.fireproofmymarriage.com/couples.php, http://covenantkeepersinc.org/, http://www.smartmarriages.com/index.html
Maybe one of these might help you. These are just a few of the many I look at to help give me insight and hope. Take care of yourself and try to piece your heart back together. As hard as it is some times, we just need space to work thru our hard times and work our way back to each other. This road is not easy. Congradualtions on keeping yourself together yesterday. That is something very hard to do. It takes time to heal but I am here for you, anytime you need it. I hope some of this will help you.