Forgive me for being harsh. I'm cranky this morning. My sitch is doing so well, but my son was up all night teething. So, I'm all twitchy-eyed and just plain tired. I'm getting frustrated reading all of these posts of people in anguish waiting for their WAS to choose them. It breaks my heart for everybody involved. I just want to grab humanity by the shoulders and shake! Life is too darn short to waver on the wonderful people that bless our days.
Please please please think about what you want in your life. What do you want "right now" to look like? When you are old and gray, what do you want to say about your life? What do you want for your kids? Try to describe it here so we can help you identify what's missing for you. Start vague and focus on feelings, if that helps. No pressure for concrete, tangible details.