I am sure others have this issue, but I really feel like I can't see the forest for the trees in my situation. Sometimes I feel like I was a distant, selfish spouse and my w just got fed up. And then there are times when I am just convinced that no man could have kept my w together and that she had a self-destructive streak that was going to over-power everything at some point. I mean I read through the posts on this site (and I know this is not the most productive perspective) but I generally feel like there are three groups here: people married to jerks, people who have been jerks, and people with broken relationships that need better communication. And I really don't know which category to put my marriage into. And then you add in the fact that there is a medical component to this with my undiagnosed condition, and I really feel like I don't know how to behave or how to think.
