You go girl! Make sure you have that safety plan in place though!
As for 'a lot of yourself gone with the rose coloured glasses' ... there's nothing wrong with having hopes and dreams. I would also endeavour to say that I think that once you are out, you will find that you had been hiding a lot of yourself and that yourself had not been 'given away' or 'left behind'.
Biggest hugs from down Under....don't question yourself again.
** Purple
As soon as you trust yourself you will know how to live. Goethe
