Just a thought..... I agree about the issue of respect. We need to be able to respect our spouses. I spent ten years by and large believing in him and respecting him. I truly do not think he has felt the same for me; lack of respect due to his view about my chronically bad parenting, lack of interest in the family unit. For me, how do I get respect back for a man who has done this to my life, to our D's life, to my family's life (my Mum is having to support me at the moment until I return to my job in September as I am still convalescing from my illness) How does my H find respect for me after I have slapped a safety order summons on him. I needed to protect myself but it is still a very definite path to take. Have just woken up so am a bit teary, sad, he is waking up next to OW. Will go and make a cup of tea and hopefully feel better soon. I am worth more than this but especially when I first wake up I feel less than. It would be great if we could rewrite our history