Learning to Detach

[kjensen]

I asked H to help me with the new laptop(couldn' get it connected to the internet). He fixed it up easily. Went home for lunch and thanked H again. We took a nice walk around the neighborhood. H still makes comments that may indicate he sees us together in the future..a neighbor was getting a new roof and H said, we'll have to do that sometime in the near future. Maybe a brown roof would look better... The other day he was showing me our retirement account info and I said it looked like things were improving-we might be able to retire in our late 50's and his comments were all "we" oriented. Could just be the waffling.

H's fear is that if he puts effort into our marriage and it still fails, that will be the end. That twisted logic just made me sad. As long as he has that fear, I don't think he'll put anything into "us".

Interesting note: H slept worse than usual last night. I'm thinking that that counseling class yesterday gave his subconscious a lot to work through...
Good day overall with H.