Am I doing the right thing?

[kjensen]

D,
I still struggle with all of my unanswered (and unasked) questions. The emotions of hurt,betrayal, anger, sadness, remorse are always playing in my heart. But I strive for compassion and empathy in order to deal-not always successfully.

I think its hardest for me to have compassion when my H's blame and anger are directed at me. My H's "normal" kindness and rationality suck me in to thinking this is a normal troubled marriage situation, then the MLC husband returns and I realize I can't expect rationality. For every 'up' there is a corresponding 'down', at least for now.

You seem to be doing well. Pat yourself on the back and remember this is an experience from which we grow, and no one I know has ever grown by already being perfect and not having missteps along the way!