God will bless you, you and I know that, because nothing like forgiving those who wrong us is better to open up the door to God's blessings. Eventually you will, it took me so long to forgive x, I think I've mostly have now, thanks to God. Fat chance she'll get to keep the kids full time, you are a good father and there is no history of abuse, they have got to give you joint custody and a decent schedule, you are in my prayers))))
Were you able to take kids to a C? I'm so so glad I take kids every 2 wks, d6's defiance and hyperactivity are getting pretty bad -- the C told me that if I don't fix that now I will have a defiant 10-year-old in the future who will be very hard to deal with. So whatever you can do for your kids do it *now* before they are set on their ways and it's too late to do/say anything
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.