It's been a very busy time with friends and family.
My dad went into the hospital again. I felt a strong need to be there and everything fell into place (right priced, place for my daughter to stay along with our dog) that allowed me to fly out 3 days after buying the ticket to visit. It was very good to see my dad and my mom.. and my brother. I'll probably go out in a month or so to help my dad with organizing his stuff. The way I helped my mom impressed him.
So many little things have been happening that add up to big things. Going with the flow, not fighting something that seems right keeps taking me to better places. Over the weekend I had an incredible time with my sister, so much angst from our past gently dissolved, at least for me.
On the way back (a 90 minute drive through picturesque hills) I followed my urge to go to the hospital and do Reiki. I had an incredibly moving experience with a young woman, who later said I was her angel. Describing the flow of energy, how much sorrow, hurt she released is beyond my ability. I was shaken by its simple completeness... kind of like trying to describe the feeling of holding your newly born baby in your arms.
All sorts of shifts of awareness and thoughts have tweaked me.. in a good way. Although I looked at refinancing, I decided that selling the house was a better option. I have firm numbers on what I'd get for selling my sporty car which I can use to build a monetary cushion or use toward a down payment.
I'm facing things I avoid. Ex's words no longer make me quake. I simply have no interest in talking to him. His actions have burned bridges, at least for me. I'll work on getting over that rumbling tension inside but I keep the thought of forgiveness toward in the forefront.
