Just wanted to let you know that I read this thread. It seems you have a very long history, and I don't know all of it.
From the limited information I've read, it seems that your marriage is in purgatory and that you are waiting for your husband to step up. I'm not sure if your husband has ever stepped up and been your dream?? Anyway, I know that purgatory is not a happy place.
If you haven't done so already (and you may have, so please forgive me as I am commenting in ignorance), I hope that you have spent some time envisioning yourself living the life of your dreams. And, I hope that you have started to do things for yourself that work toward that vision. Whatever it may be.
I'll try to keep up with your thread as you work your way across this big bridge. I hope it leads you to peace and happiness very soon!
Feel free to join our party in the SSM forum anytime.
