Afraid of rollercoasters and on a terrifying one!

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When you drink, it needs to be in a safe environment with people with whom you can share anything.

This part is also very true. Don't drink around mutual friends or aquantances either. I made that mistake and regret things I said because they could get back to s.

I think your situations sounds like it has a lot of potential. Your H has a lot to work out on his own and they say it takes 6+ months for an affair to cool off. Your patiences and PMA will pay off later. You sound like you are doing great. Don't let one little slip get you down. It didn't do any perminent damage.