Start fantasizing about what you wish your life would look like and start living it. I'm not talking about leaving him or cheating on him. I'm talking about becoming the person you want to be and living the life you want to live. You'll start to shine, he'll be attracted to that and just might come along.
It's too soon to just break up. You haven't done WORK yet. You have to do WORK. If you don't now, you'll never grow from this very spot. Don't float. THINK. Write it down.
Don't rush on a decision. DQ is right. You need time to cleanse from the A's. You do know those were not real examples of true love, exciting love, right? Those were fantasy. All people involved were not standing ready and available and prepared to engage in real love. They were just a distraction. All garbage.
Focus on your dream LIFE, not just your dream marriage. This is more about personal growth first. Becoming the woman that is ready to love someone fully and ready to choose someone for the right reasons.
Let's not look at your H at all right now. Can you start thinking about a happier life for yourself?
