Im afraid that i did not marry him b/c i was in love passionately w/ him.. he was down on his luck and he was a very nice guy.. i wanted to get married and start a family.. iknwe he would be a good father and husband.. but im afraid there was no real passion to begin w/ and that is the hard part.. i asked him to think back to when the last time we were passionate about each other...he even said probably when we were dating.. Im afraid what i want is not possible for him.. it is not in his nature to be passionate.. and after all these years of my being dissappointed in him.. can i really expect him to be passionate about him.. This would be easy if i felt all this incredible remorse and desperate wanting to save the marraige.. BUT I FEEL NOTHING> and he says he feels the same way..we are just both so at a loss.. I told him we would have to try to start back as friends..but that even seems impossible at times.. I know Im whining.. i just dont seem to be able to get a foothold.. everyone says . fight for your marraige.. recommit.. what happens when you just dont know? and neither of you know.. so there is not one of you pushing the other along..
