HJR - Listen to Lucky, woman! She knows what she is saying.
You have to work for it. You have to find your own passion. Yes, if you let yourself, you can float and flit around for the rest of your life, unsure what you want, not knowing what path to follow. NO ONE will come and tell you what you are supposed to do or want. You have to seek it within yourself.
Also a reminder dear, that you are still in withdrawal. Do not underestimate the power of the addiction you were under. When people give up their "drug" they ALWAYS go through a depression, ALWAYS. It is the depression that keeps people on real drugs and alcohol, because they know how bad it will "hurt" to go off of them. So don't forget what I said about waiting this out for at least a month, and you will begin to think more clearly after that, ok? Maybe you won't wake up with all the answers on the 31st day....but I just want you to understand that as of right now, you are still under the influence...your body still yearns to "get high"....and until you work through that addiction, you can't really think as clearly. So be good to yourself until the 30 days are up...remember what influences you are under. You are not crazy or mixed up any more than most of us on this forum...but you ARE still under the influence. So for that reason, cut yourself a break and don't expect miracles right now.
