Yeah I am really torn. I think that what she values is that I am a good father now (she would say since the bomb. I would say since I was diagnosed and began treatment for a disease). She also values me as a friend. And I am a good provider. So she divorces me and gets to keep all of that. And if there is another guy, she gets the exciting new relationship. I get that. But then the other side is, since my diagnosis and treatment I feel so much better and if I am not around her she won't be able to see it. So while I am keeping it breezy and always letting her initiate contact, I need to be in contact with her for her to see the changes. But maybe I should just knock it off. This is tricky.
