I believe that there are many people that we can choose to love in the world. I also believe that people are brought together (through conscious AND subconscious influences) for a reason.
You chose your H and he chose you. Each of you had your reasons. How did you get there? What was your past before you married? What was his?
We need to get down to the bottom of how you got here, what you want, what you need, and what you love about your H. He really can be your dream. You've both just woken up and need to examine your lives.
It doesn't just come to you. You can float around until you die. WORK, girl! Figure out what you want *for now* so that you can act accordingly in pursuit of that. You can always revise your course little by little along the way to get to your ultimate sunshine-y place.
