Boy oh boy this has been hard. I feel almost as bad as when this all started. tomorrow i have to go back to work and hopefully my routine will kick in and i'll start to feel better.
I have been home 2 days now and H hasn't even acknowledged I'm back in the country! But i didnt expect him to as he never remembers dates anyway. I'm not planning on contacting him tho, i figure he knows my number and if he wants to talk to me he knows how.
I have been thinking about how H left things when he, well, left. I feel like as far as he is concerned he moved out, took his ring off and is moving on with his life. There has never been any talk of maybe working things out. He has always said that would not be fair to me and even told me I shouldn't let him come back even if he did wanted to. I know i can't change his mind. I feel like the more he is 'moving on with his life' the more disconnected we are and the farther away he gets. And then the less chance there is that he is thinking of me or our M. I know this is probably how it's supposed to go naturally. I just wish he had thoughts in his mind of it not being totally over and of things we could work on. At least then i'd have somewhere to go from.
I know what I need to do is keep GAL and working on myself. Just having a hard time of it today.
Me-27 H-28 M-2.5 yrs T-8.5 yrs No kids B 1/09 S 2/09
