Holding onto Hope

[In Limbo]

Below are a few of the ideas I'm thinking. What I'm trying to do is to just do little things for us to bond.

Play games - Uno is one of our favorites
Find a festival or other fun outdoor activity and go
Take the boys and the dog to the dog park and play
Cuddle and talk
Go bowling
Go skating
Go out in the backyard and toss a football, baseball or frisbee
Fly a kite
Go to a play at the local children's theater
Go to a movie
Rent/watch a movie and eat popcorn, cuddled up together
Read a book then talk about it
Go for a walk, look for interesting things (with boys that usually means bugs, rocks, etc.)

Maybe you could think of some too and share with me. I've always been very close to my boys (probably to the detriment of my M). It's hard to admit, but the past several weeks I've found that I don't feel the connection to them that I always have. Sometimes I wonder if it's because things seem to be better with H when they're not around or if it's because both H and I see the beginnings of the big problems in M after having kids. I have been a horrible mom the past several weeks and that's not fair to them. They've got a dad in MLC, they don't need a mom gone off the deep end too. I've got to be their rock right now regardless of what I'm going through. I'm going to try to remember also that DB is for them as well. I can't control whether H interacts with them, has good R with them or anything else H does so I need to just let it go. The other thing I plan to do is get them in to see a C that specializes in working with kids going through D.

How are your boys handling your sitch?