Tjs Im sorry you are having to go thru this. Im sure you have alot of emotions you are going thru right now. I can relate. Dont give up. If you really want your marriage then find the courage to keep going. You will fall many times, but keep going. Thats the advice I am giving myself. I will pray for you and ask God to help you thru this ruff time. I always check the boards so please post and I will be here to support you.