You are simply thinking out loud and it doesn't matter if we understand exactly because we still understand, see? I am so glad that your artistic side had a breakthrough. It is like that sometimes, just sort of happening. I think that is why dreams are so good. You get all sorts of ideas out.
I had a little voice tell me this recently and maybe it will do you some good too. Be patient. He wants you too. That's it. I am not so good at patient but am more than willing to give it a go.
Good luck with the flowers.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory