Learning to Detach

[kjensen]

Ok so I went home at lunch to drop off my new purchase- a "cheap" laptop b/c our home computer memory is almost full and the girls would like a more mobile computer(it was a want, not a need). I didn't want to keep the laptop in the car while I was at work.

H was there and although he knew I had planned to buy the laptop his facial expression showed a lot of hidden anger when he saw it. I asked him if he was angry at me for something and he said he was. He was angry b/c I was buying things for the girls(beds, tickets to Wicked, laptop-which is really more for me but..) and he felt like I looked like to "good" parent and he didn't look good. He has long had issues about me making more momey and obviously still has these issues.

I said I hadn't thought about how it might look and I didn't think our girls would see it that way at all. Then he got mad b/c I had more books on my nightstand that he foound disrespectful (How to Forgive!!) and a written title of a book, Coming Apart on a piece of paper....So we had a stupid argument about that. Basically I felt that he just wanted to yell at me and blame me for everything wrong I think.
He is obviously 'snooping' if he saw a written book title on a piece of paper and the title of an upside down book on my nightstand...

He's still in ALL stages of MLC!! Anger is BACK! Ha ha! You're right, D Money, the stages and keeping track don't help for everyone. My H is visiting all of them, it seems all the time..
I really wonder how I'll be able to keep on loving him through this b/c I have a hard time separating the pre-MLC H I knew from this creature. I'm tired!