Ok. I haven't called so far. And no I have no legitimate reason to call him.
I will listen to you guys. I don't want to backslide from all the work I've done. But it gets so tempting. I won't lie... I miss him today. But part of me know that I shouldn't. I will regret it if I do. I know it, I just gotta let the feeling pass.
By the way, don't you guys get lonely. I gotta say some nights I have been really lonely at home. I watch TV and talk on the phone and try to get in late, but I do feel lonely at times. I know part of this is that this is the first time I have been not in a relationship/without H since sixteen so I guess its all new to me. I've been surviving but it gets lonely at times for sure.
