Thanks guys.. K.. me and the Piscean had a long phonecall the other night, it was very neutral, just friends.. about art and mortgages etc! Each advising the other and I explained about my feelings for my ex and was honest. So he said, but text me if you get inspiration.. that was all! No kisses on the text, I promise!
Rob, I still feel I am my OLD self.. which is the point, why he said, she is again the girl I fell in love with. I havent changed really, just snapped out of some fears and phobias that caused me so much stress that I kept getting this mystery virus (21 times in a row) and it put alot of strain on our R. Of coruse, I dont know if thats why he left, but BMF and wife, J and other MF back home seem to summise it might be why. Personally I think it was a combination of things. I will probably never know!
I'm getting over it now.. been to college and made a start, so yes, I will post pics of the exhibition on FB once its up in 5 weeks time! (eek!). One of the pieces is going to be called I think "The destruction of Pluto on the white bloom of innocence".
No word from him... I feel sad about it today. Try as I might to not get too low, as you say.. its just endlessly disappointing, to hear such exciting news and then.. nothing. Perhaps its just another false alarm, like the news of February 6th and NYEve and 27th December.. and last Novemeber.. and last July.. and last March ..and....
