Everything that you have said resonates fully with me; yes I quite simply have to wake up. I have strong moments and weak moments but essentially I know that I am worth more than this. people make mistakes in life; we are all only human; the bigger travesty is not realising and then not taking responsibility. It has taken me a number of years to come to terms with my conflict; and I know full well that I have subjected my D and H to upset etc. But I have found a new focus, a renewed love of my self and my position and a new sense of hope. It is up to God as to whether he will ever care to see the change in front of him, and whether he will dare to care. This is what he has wanted for the last 5 years, but apparently it is too late for him. But no too late for me and my daughter. He just passed me in the car on our road where the house is; completely ignored me with a stony face. I could say its sad but actually, for a 54 yr old man to do that to a woman he has been with for 10 years, well it doesnt say much about maturity.
