Slowly but surely - detach and 180

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So I did good GAL this weekend. I went out Friday night (see above) and then I went to see a play on Saturday night and to Sushi after with a new group of people. I found them on Meetup.com and so these were people I didn't know. I was very nervous to go alone to meet strangers but it turned out great. I talked myself into it knowing that it might be ackward the first few times but then I would know them and it would be fun. I also told myself that I could leave anytime if I felt to uncomfortable.

Next weekend I'm going to go to linedancing lessons at a local bar. That will make me nervous too but I need to do this stuff.

I do think going made me feel better after. I felt kinda more confident. When I saw W on Sunday to pick up kids I didn't have that sad feelings. I do still think about her a lot but not as intensely. Another thing was this morning I had to meet W at DD school to exchange some stuff and apparently I walked right by W like 4 times without seeing her and she had to come grab me. That was definitly a change. I usually spot her immediatly and am aware of where she is at all times.

W and I have a counceling appointment today at 1:00. I am really going to try to switch things over to get W to talk and not let Counceler focus on me. I will also try to get across that I am moving on with or without W.

Should I mention that I went out Saturday if the C asks about how we are doing? Say I have found a lot of peace and even went out and had some fun and meet some new friends on Saturday. Don't tell W who or where but just mention that I did. Not sure if that is too much or if I should just keep doing things and let her hear about it more casuallly, like asking her to watch kids so I can go etc.