Ok, fb2. But I am not thinking of my "greener grass". I am not that type. H is now my H and the father of my children and I am very aware of that.
kat, I have told/written to him almost everything I need IN DETAIL as "I need you to compliment me (my 2nd love language), hug me, kiss me (1st LL), make time for me(3rd LL), etc etc in detail. I have sent at least 3-4 similar letters to him. Everytime he says he understands, he feels I have the right to want these things and then...nothing.
So no, I am not going to bite your head off, it's just that I tried what you suggested.
I am very proud of myself for not starting any dark convos. I did say things that sounded that I am not including him in my future plans like vacation etc but that didnt happen on purpose. When I realised it I tried to cover it up but I know he noticed. Also when I refused to spend time with his sister's family I exlpained that I dont want anybody getting the wrong idea as long as we have not yet decided what we do with our marriage. He agreed.
Anyway, I am OK. I have days off form work and planning on doing some things I have postponed doing. Also, I may get my spine/back checked out because it really hurts again. K
