Thank you, I have been waiting for your response eagerly. I backslide because of my feelings. I did not know how much I loved her until this whole thing blew up, I understand where I went wrong (as we all seem to do), but I have not been given the opportunity to fix it because she never wanted to go to counselling. She has bought so many new clothes and sexy underwear and it is so difficult thinking it is for someone else. She has lost 2 stones in weight and looks great, this is why I lose focuse when I am talking to her and become a gibbering wreck. I only have 8 to 10 weeks before the decree absolute comes through, though I will still continue to reconcile.
The only change is that I moved out of the house which seems to have improved things (until this morning), in that she now has space. As hard as it is I will take any opportunity to have the children, she is pushing me to have them more overnight, I know why but as you have said I just have to try and forget that and enjoy the children.
Bomb dropped: 19/12/08 Me:48 WAW:41 D:10 S:6 Married: 15 years
