You always have good food for thought. I am continuing to heal & improve my own life while standing. I know it is what I am to do for now and I have no idea how long God intends me to do it for. I will only be in the states another few months and will be gone for a year. Will our D be done with before I leave? I have no idea?? Or will I keep standing while deployed? Right now I haven't a clue...... I am taking it day by day.
Having a tough night. I keep getting visions of my H with other W. It has begun to really bother me this week. I am sure he is involved with W overseas. It's difficult having him so far away and not having a clue what is really going on. I thought I had come to terms with him dating other W (or whatever you call it!) but obviously have not!
I guess it's b/c I do not plan to date until our M is officially over (nor could I) and it hurts he can plunge full steam ahead! I understand dating while separated is considered "normal" by some and many in my generation... but I have always been more "old fashioned" and conservative.... or use my moral conscious?? :-)
These thoughts are driving me crazy tonight! I hope by journaling I will finally be able to hit the sack....
Me:28, first M H: 33, second M Married: 08/08 Bomb: 10/08 H filed D and deployed: 12/08 Served: 04/09 I deploy: 07/09 Hearing date: 08/09
