Thanks for all the replys, I was on guest pass at the gym for a week and got my actual membership pass tonight so i have that to do.
And i am actually having my second phone consultation tommorow at 12:00. So far there's alot to talk about.
I keep telling myself that all the damage i have done in the past 13yrs will not heal overnight, that i need to stay patient. As much as I wish she would bound back into my arms with a huge smile on her face and say that she wants to go to couseling with me and work everything out i have to realize that right now all she BARELY wants is to be my friend and that is a huge improvement than I was before.
The other thing that is hard for me and i know is a major problem in our relationship is ive got the nice guy syndrome. Im pretty sure that even to this day if you asked her she would tell you the I might not clean a dish but i would go thru hell or highwater to make something happen for her. My DB coach said she castrated me along time ago......LOL!!! I need to work on that for sure the thing is that i am that way for her and my friends and family and that is it. I feel that if i treat everyone like that, then how will people know there special to me.
How do you get over hearing the hurt in there voice, knowing that you caused it. It kills me to know that she is in pain because of me. On the other hand I wonder does she feel the same way as I do. Does she hurt because I hurt, like I do for her or does she not care??????
And all this because of the 3 answer ? about the yard work, the alignment, or fishing......well that was the straw that broke the camels back atleast.
She did tell me yesterday that she will not be staying in ohio, that she feels chicago is her home so she will be moving back here she thinks just not with me as of right now.
Can some of you interpret this whole 3?'s thing for me this is killing me, my wife is getting her phd in psychology and that is the type of thing they use to diagnose people. But it kinda hurts to be a Lab Rat when it comes to your emotions. I have been in love with her since the 3rd time i talked to her in 10th grade and stood by her thru everything ups,downs and it just feels like she is throwing me away.
Sorry for being all over the place tonight ive been kind of a wreck today. But thanks for being there and trying to help me out
