As always Sage has a great point. You and CJ do seem to have very good communication now.
I would think if you phrase it right and approach him right you ought to be able to get some resolution here.
CJ makes me think, just based on your posts of some of David's character traits. He can be very caring and very concerned. He can also be VERY focused. Right now I have the feeling that he is very focused on his school work and not on what really needs to be addressed in the R.
You know can't expect him to do any "bloody mind reading"!
I really think there is no doubt of CJ's love for you, not from the emails and notes that you have gotten from him and the work he HAS done on the R.
I have not followed LL's thread but I do think CJ has demonstrated a willingness to change and work with you when you have been specific about what you need from him.
What is it that Poepad said on Tal's thread, something like us guys just don't get it! I can't remember the quote exactly.
I am also guessing that some of the feelings of insecurity and he doesn't love me "that way" feelings are coming from your physical pain right now and your unhappiness with your current weight and eating tendencies. PLUS not uhmm..enough physical activity for you to feel sexy even with a bit of weight gain!
You know sometimes I think I have good thoughts in my head but I don't seem to be able to write them out.
Hope you got something out of this post!
If not here is at least a hug and hope you feel better!
{{{{{Shiny}}}}}
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
