Thanks gabby, it's good to see I'm not the only "crazy" one out there hanging out with the ex I think right now I'm able to see STBX as she is rather than what I would like her to be. We're not together but we still are in the sense that we have a family together. STBX is still seeing OP and that's up to her. I too feel a void, as you described, and it's probably a very natural thing. I think often people in our sitches look to fill that void quickly to avoid that empty feeling inside. I know I sure looked for female validation in the first year, not a R but validation. Now I don't know where I'm at but that's OK too. Maybe this is what the Lord wants me to experience and it'll make me a better man in the long run. Btw, this was Hot Yoga night and I had to pass due to a political party meeting tonight. STBX just called to ask if I'd like to go another night this week together. It's nice to see her reach out for my company, that's what friends should do. On the weekend we spent Saturday afternoon together in discussion with our teenage daughter over money matters and the next day we went to our other D's gymnastics meet together. We actually talk together now and after so many years of virtually no communication on her part that's kind of nice! What is is and, as I've said before, she will have to face the Lord with what she has done and explain it to Him, I'll leave in His hands. My job as a Christian and a parent is to be as forgiving as I can be (without being stupid!) and work towards something positive and that's what I'm doing, just as you are in your sitch. Thanks for your input \:\) Please pray that I'll survive another night of Hot Yoga, the odds aren't in my favour!

Divorced February 27, 2012.

"Only by love is love awakened".~ Ellen G White