When I left for the lake last Wednesday, the W gave me a call and wanted to discuss the relationship. This was the first time that she has been sincere and actually spoke in a nice and kind way in quite a while. She was apologetic for being so angry towards me in prior discussions and saying some of the mean things that she has. She also said that the way she left probably wasn't the best, but she didn't know how else to do it.
The call lasted for some time and went relatively well. Although hearing those things definitely hurt. I think that is why I was so down for the first two days of my fishing trip. I just kept analyzing and re-thinking every single word that she said. I was driving myself nuts trying to reason through it.
I find that the lack of contact is definitely helping my mental state. It seems that every time we talk or see each other I crash hard for about two days.
Well,,,,,its off to the gym!
M 30 WAW 29 T 15 M 5 ILYBNILWY 3/8/09 Separated 3/14/09
