Hey Pam!!

I don't think you have done anything wrong.
Perhaps your expectations are just a little high...

Listen, and this is just my opinion....

You want a brand new relationship with your Husband, not more of the same.

Yes there are some good things that you want back from the relationship, but ultimately the "old" Marriage is dead.

You have to be patient as both of you have to learn how to trust one another again, and this takes time.

I wish you could enjoy this time, and take it slowly and look at it as an adventure, a journey of sorts.

Neither of you is the same person, try to remember that.

I know you can do this!

(((((hugs hugs)))))

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.