TP,

You take that hand slap back right now! \:\) You obviously missed where I said "not as a ploy," after discussing dating.

Sigh, I know I have been here too long to make some of the mistakes that I do. But that is certainly not one of them. If so, I would have done that by now. It is the VERY reason I have not dated. I knew that I had way too much baggage.

I realize I need to get past this "the whole thing is my fault" issue that I have.

Just please guys, don't lecture me on GAL! I work full time, I go to the gym 3-4 times a week, I have a standing dinner date every Tuesday with friends, I have a standing drink date with a group once a week, and the weekends are usually full with something. This weekend I am going out with friends from college and I just accepted an invitation for cocktails with another group. I hate that I am typing this, but I just feel as if I am not telling you who I really am in some way.

Please don't get me wrong, I am not mad. This is just a lot to absorb. I was trying to focus on "what would things look like if they were getting better?" and a big one for me is the calls at night just to talk. I feel I need those if I am to go anywhere with this.

Yes, I made a mistake with the helping around the house thing. I will not bring it up again. The movie we were supposed to see together? I will go see it with someone else, since I see no time to see it with our schedules before it is taken out of the theaters.

I am smart enough to know that because I am feeling defensive I need to think on this some more. But, I have to say, all in all I really thought I was doing things better.

Off to make dinner.