She knows I've been reading and like that. Shows her that I'm seriously doing something... not just talking about it.
I try to keep my distance, but long to hold her. We have our moments, but I'm not drooling or hanging all over her.
We had a really great weekend... Cleaned the house, worked in the yard. She bought sopme flower pots and flowers for the front of the house. We had her parents over last night for a bar-b-q. We are still sleeping apart and not a whole lot of hugging and kissing. That bothers me, but I can't keep dwelling on it... She seems interested in keeping this going, but keeps reminding me that it will take time and I need to be working for what I want. As she remineded me, she gave herself freely and I didn't appreciate it. This time will be a lot more work! Kind of like cleaning up after yourself as you go along is way more easy than waiting for all of the dirt and clutter to build up and then try to tackle it. I still want to be close... talk, call, text, etc. like we used to... but she is not in a receptive place for that now and it will only piss her off... or at least annoy her. Overall I am pretty positive, but I have my moments when I wonder if maybe we just aren't gonna get there...
She is talking to her friends about us because she is telling me that they are talking, and it's not about breaking up, but about getting back together, making changes, being happy... so maybe there's hope yet...
