Well its not really going to matter that much in the end anyway. I have suspected and now have it confirmed that H is still talking to OW (not just about the baby) and so after my IC appointment today I will need to just let go. Its very sad to me and I wish things didn't end up this way, but I'm just not going to be second best anymore. I will also be sending a short email to my MIL expressing the following:
I have waited to do this until my feelings were a little clearer to me, but that hasn't happened yet and I fear if I wait too long I just won't send this. I'm not sure what to say or even how to say this, but I need you to know how this makes me feel. I am incredibly hurt and saddened by your offer to let Paul and Ofelia rent your house. I wish I could put into words how this whole thing has made me feel, but I don't even understand. Considering how close we are/were and what I considered to be out "mother/daugher" relationship, this feels like a complete betrayal. I just wanted to be honest because I don't really know what else to say. Maybe you can help me "get it" or I'll come to grips with it whenever I come to grips with it.
Thanks for all the support guys. C
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option