You are right. I am not 'done' with Dan. But I need to be. So I am acting 'as if' until it becomes second nature. You know, that whole "Fake it till you make it" thing. And it isn't entirely fake. I want to be happy and I want to be able to make plans, set goals, live life, without waiting to know whether he is going to be involved in them. It is what I should have been doing since the day I found him with ow 17 months ago...
So no, I am not miraculously cured. But I needed something to help me turn the corner, and I have. Am I over him? No, but I am working on seeing life through my eyes, living life through my own decisions instead of factoring him in on everything. There is a line in a song popular here these days, "I don't know who I am without you, all I know is that I should..." I know who I have been, I just need to find her and let her out to play.
