It's Complicated! Part 5

[glamgirl]

H called when he was on his way over yesterday. He says Glam I can't sleep. I have been up all night. He says Glam I don't know what to do. He said does depression keep you awake? He said am I depressed? He said I don't know anymore.

H also talked about moving to another state. He wanted to know what I thought and what state I would be interested in moving. It's hard because, if that is what would put our family back together I would move in a heart beat and start over. Not sure if h truly wants to do that or is this just convo.

H arrived and looked terrible. Looked like h hadn't shaved in a week. He looked exhausted. He plopped on the couch and asked if I could make him some lunch. I did, and then he was too exhausted to eat it.

He said Glam I want to ML to you, but I am so exhausted. I said h don't worry about it. Just rest. He looked like he was going to start crying. I know he doesn't want to feel this way and must feel so bad inside.

I was leaving for work and he said he didn't have any energy to walk me out. I said h it's ok, call me if you need anything. He called later and said he had rested and felt better. He asked me to join him and the kids for a quick dinner. I did. We had a nice time. H asked if I wanted to hang out with him. Not sure what that meant. Then he said could you start walking me to the door when I leave?

I am at a loss as to what to do with h's depression. Now he is off the meds, so not sure what to expect here. I mentioned we have C this week and if he was going. He gave me a blank stare and didn't answer. I will find out later and cancel in advance as to not pay this time around.

Life is a puzzle of sorts........