Ok, that all sucks big time. Now time to list the positives! Sage keeps telling me to do that, in my case I think fear is keeping me from it. Like if I think too positive and this all goes South I will be even more devastated BUT at least sometimes I am getting better at thinking of the positives!
You know our voice in our head. It needs to think of the positives rather than dwell on the negatives. I know when I hurt nothing else seems right either. I am not doing a good job here of saying what I am trying to say, hopefully you read me well enough to follow me. I don't mean to sound trite or dismissive of what is going on for you, I am amazed at all you have dealt with and continue to deal with health wise and keep your PMA upbeat. I'm just throwing this out trying to help pick you up a little. By now you have probably had a good glass of vino and feel tons better! Hey our wine instructor told me one time when getting a cold that glass of wine would help, I think it did or maybe I just couldn't tell it didn't!
BTW Saturday is Champagne day on my thread, drop by for a glass! Five years - still married!
I hope you feel better today and it is a great day for you!!!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Now time to list the positives! 
Sage keeps telling me to do that, in my case I think fear is keeping me from it. Like if I think too positive and this all goes South I will be even more devastated BUT at least sometimes I am getting better at thinking of the positives! 
