WAW1

[markhaving probs]

Firstly, please could someone advise me on my last two posts.

I always feel worst in the morning before I get out of bed. All my problems, my fears for now and the future, not seeing my children everyday and now my wife involved in a full blown PA.

I cannot get out of my mind what she is doing and who she is doing it with, I am having real problems focusing on the positive as much as I am trying I cannot see any light at the end of the tunnel. My wife all of a sudden seems happy with life, it is obvious as to why, she is now going out more often, new clothes, she is reading 'The Secret' about PMA and all in all everything seems to be rosy for her.

I feel bitter, lonely, all the worst parts of LBS. I do not wish to sound so weak and feeble but I am having real problems coming to terms with all of this and it is now 4 months since this whole nightmare started. I do not portray this to anybody anymore as I put on a happy face and tell people everything is great including my wife. The problem I have is if she thinks I am over her she will assume I am ok with the situation and will not feel any guilt over what she is doing now. The anger towards me seems to have been lifted, but is this because we are seperated and her affair has now moved to the next stage and she does not care anymore, or is it because her guilt has now passed because I openly show I look ok?

I know I have to be patient but this whole nightmare is ripping me apart inside. Please could someone just respond as I really need some support.