Well im packing my things tonight to go back home from my visit. The time has flown and i know it will be hard to go back. It is much easier when i am here bc i am busy and have lots of family around for support. its much easier to forget about whats happening with H when i am here bc i am so far away and i dont spend so much time alone like i do at home.
When i get back this week i am going to plan for myself to keep journaling, to review my goals and to re-read some of DR to refocus what i am doing. i feel like i need to work on 180s more, i am trying to do things differently which are more helpful to me and make me happier but its hard for me to actually list them. also H never really gave me a list of complaints so i find it hard to remember what were problems. i think i need to do some more searching myself and do some reading.
It will be hard for me to walk back into my now empty house but i will do my best to keep my head up and continue on. im sure i just need to get used to things again, get my to do lists made to keep me busy and make sure i take care of myself(like making sure i sleep enough).
thanks to everyone for the support and encouragement i have been getting here this has been helpful for me.
Me-27 H-28 M-2.5 yrs T-8.5 yrs No kids B 1/09 S 2/09
