I am an extremely emotional person as is... i have always worn them on my sleeve.. im easy to read!
As of yesterday when he said he was taking my children to her house, I cut off all contact. I need to move foreward for me. I am focusing on one step and one day at a time and trying to be happy. Letting God lead the way!
Today was a beautiful day.. I came home from work to mow the lawn..GRR.. no gas.
So, instead I cleaned the garage and started packing. Hubby has stuff from the last time he moved out in a pile not yet even put away..I got it and others packed and taped up..started a pile.. It may not be much..spent about an hour and half ..but its a start. Will work towards his clothes in the closet tomorrow.
My kids came home from her house and said they were buying bunkbeads...
I dont believe he will be happy..I know he loves me...in some way. [censored], he just told me Friday he thinks about me all the time! But if being with her makes him feel like a "man" then so be it.
I will graciously walk away..I know i need and deserve more. Funny, I saw my cousin today..she is in the middle of a divorce, long term marriage like mine. He cheated on her also.
She said ..he wants to come back..hmm how ironic, isnt that what everyone always says happens. Thats part of why I tried to hold on so long..hoping we could salvage our life..if my hubby ever changed his mind. But, I have come to realize that 1. that might not ever happen and 2. maybe this is in Gods plan for me..someone better that may actually love me for me.
