PM Thread #5 - Hope new plan works

[PositivelyMommy]

Well thanks everyone for all your good thoughts. I am enjoying my parents being here very much and the kids are so happy.

H, on the other hand feels very awkward this past weekend when he came to visit and there were a lot of silences.

Typical WAW behavior, after our 'emotional chat' last weekend, he totally withdrew this weekend. Move one step forward, take three steps back. He bahaved like it never ever happened. So I just played it cool, like Kev said. It got to me though when he kept changing the weekend schedule. One minute he won't be here on Sunday, next minutes, we are going out Sunday night, another day it's lunch out on Sunday with the kids. I couldn't keep my head on straight as this was heard thru D7 as he wouldn't talk to me directly. Urgghhhh. Frustrating. I almost lost it on the phone when I called him back to ask what exactly we are doing for meals as I am standing in the supermarket with food in my trolley and don't know what to buy and if I can bring the food home right away. I felt bad that I put him on the spot as he is 'the man with no plan' but I wanted to know so I know who is eating and what to buy for dinner, is that so much to ask?????

No, but I am banging my head against the wall and it's frustrating me. So I need to change tactics. You see we were celebrating his birthday yesterday and I know the kids wanted to celebrate with him but he won't nail down what we would be doing for it. Plus I have my parents in town so now I feel like I have extra people to take care of on top of the already pressurized environment I live in. I need to calm down and just roll with the punches. Such a roller coaster ride.


I feel sad, it's his birthday, a big one and I don't get to participate in it at all. It just brings out all the sad feelings back. All the years we've been together and it's ended up like this. He is shutting me out of his life. I am not allowed to plan anything for him or anything. It just hurts so much today.