Emails from FIL last night. Seems to have some insight into's H's changes. Wants to get together but not say too much. I think I'm open to that, and will try to just listen without getting defensive as much as I can. If he'll share more of where H is in his journey, that'd be good. Getting a clear sense that part of it is a need for independence. Felt controlled at home and needs to just do what he wants when he wants. I responded to FIL that I know he's independent and needs this space, and I'm giving it to him. Just moving ahead and GAL.
I dropped off some things at H's work today. Was hoping to see him to practice my cheerful attitude, etc. and thought I looked pretty darn good but he was busy with customers. Left some mail with a buddy, and left. He texted a little later "thanks'. Couldn't use fewer words to respond, but used less letters with "sure". Haha! It's so hard to demonstrate that I'm doing well, which I really think I am, when we're separated. I have so little interaction with him and I can't just fabricate reasons to contact him.
Guess I just have to remain positive and patient. But this is not easy!!
