Yes Sage, I really need to figure out a decent plan for meals. Last year it was easy...breakfast at 8, lunch at 1, dinner around 7. Since I'm now teaching until 2:30, and don't get out of there till nearly three...it's just not good!
As for the sleep, I think that after this week it will be much better. Already I got to bed a bit earlier last night, got up before noon today! Should make it easier to get to sleep tonight.
I DO think that having had to do the urine collections and waiting for my urologist app't next week has been preying on me. I've been doing a good job of ignoring my kidney problem, but the fact is...it has been full of stones for a year now. How big they are now is anyone's guess.
Me being the sole "bread winner" puts extra pressure on. Also, as CJ was not at ALL supportive of me when I was ill last year, it brings back feelings of terrible vulnerability.
I agree that CJ and I need to sit down and discuss both of our needs and expecations for this next year.
Why is it still sticking in my craw (how's that for an expression from the past???) that he has NOT made the time to call or visit the accountants he hired to fix the income tax fiasco of 2000??? Girls, we MAY have as much as 10 thousand dollars owing to us!!! I KNOW he didn't file taxes for 2002, I'm not even sure if he picked up the proper papers for it from his office before he was "structured out".
Is it just me, or does this seem ludicrously irresponsible???
We also have a leak under our washing machine which has been ongoing for months now...I just did a couple of loads on Sunday and noticed patches of disgusting mould growing on the towel he threw in front of the machine to sop up the water. I mentioned it and he said "I'll take a look at it, it's probably...." Has he looked? Nope.
Also, the basement is back to looking like a bottle factory. Cases and cases of beer empties, dozens of empty wine bottles. We have curb-side recycling and the beer store is literally a 1 minute drive from here.
Sure, I could load that stuff up and do it myself. But I imagine that just like the mess in the yard, CJ would butt in and ask why I'm doing it...promise to do it himself (as he did a YEAR ago) and then NOT.
So here's where my resentment of his time on-line is based. There are things that he's promised to take care of that he ISN'T...things which if he took out even an hour a day, he COULD.
Perhaps it's a sense of deja vu...when he got caught up in the chat lines and A's he had no interest or time for anything around here. Now it's school, but the results around here are the same.
Oh crap, I gotta get off here and do some work on my teaching dossier.
I'm going to think about an e-mail to send to CJ while I work. I'll post it here first.
