I still stand by my statement I think you are in revenge mode. There are two sides to every story. You don't seem to want to take ANY accountability that you strained your marriage and were the first to have an affair. You broke your wife's heart I am sure. Here she was in love, and raising your son's and you slept with someone else. Just because you said sorry you seem to think it is okay. Do you think she should use this in court as a defense and also to show the kind of character you have?
My ex could say crazy things about me to. I use to listen to 80's alot. Now I love hip hop. Not crazy I just really like the new music. I change a lot I think most people do. I use to never go out and do anything at all. Now I bowl, enjoy hiking, and going to movies and hanging with friend's. Not crazy again. A big change for me but am just living life. See what I mean there are two sides to every story and one person can blow the story completly up. I think you are acting out of anger I really do. Why would you have her personal journal anyway? How did she get a job as a teacher with a diagnosed mental condition?