the past few days have been good - W and I have talked about plans for future, have had some more very nice romantic times. She still seems somewhat distant at times, and still very busy when all I want to do is be with her, but I know part of that is that I am focused on her and I feel every moment not close 2x as bad as they are, and I created the environment in which she had to keep herself busy, so she has created habits of spending time on computer or chatting with friends.
The good thing I see looking at myself is this time I am not feeling such a need to come here looking for help, wishing someone would tell me the magic bullet to fix my M. I learned my lessons my first time through, I just needed some reminder. I focus on being better - in my sitch, as W and I are still very much together, part of that being better is focusing on her more - she hadnt walked so far away this time that she is not open to my attention.
So mostly I am here reading other peoples threads, trying to help them with what I have learned, sharing that knowledge because I was and will be a DB success, and my greatest hope is somehow through my experiences I can help a few others through it. I only wish there was a way to find people before they have gotten to the point where we all seem when we get here - where things are really bad.
I am also making a commitment to myself to come here at least once in a while for a long time - leaving the board when things were going well last time through, I think was a mistake, as I think my old DB friends would have caught me slipping and given me the wakeup call I needed before things got bad again. Seeing the same story again and again, helping others through it, should help me keep my reslove to continue to DB for life.
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