Well divorce was filed yesterday. STBX will pick up the summons from my lawyer directly and waive the 30 wait. He is ready to get remarried, as I have discovered that he has been seeing a girl for 2 years now.
He finally came clean to me a couple of weeks ago. She is young, and he says she is the opposite of me. She never yells at him or gives him a hard time and he can do whatever he wants. Good riddance and good luck to her. I feel sorry for her. I know that she will be hurt in all of this. A few weeks ago STBX was asking me to come over for a booty call. I asked if she knew about his "extracurricular" activities. He said of course not, but he is entitled to want to have sex with me because he is attracted to me and if he can get it he will.
Disgusting. I told him good luck and to leave me alone. He still tries to make contact with me using the kids(to come over and hang out). He probes all of the people I know to find out what is going on with my life and I know a D will not solve these issues.
But I am ready to have it done. I have conflicting emotions in that it is truely the end of the road. But I know it is for the best. This man will never change and is so toxic to me. I don't know why I feel so sad about things though.
I as still talking with the new guy. He has been out of town for a month and calls when he can. He is doing some training (for military) so he is not always able to call, but it is nice to talk to him. I am also a little confused about where he and I are at. I guess the distance is getting to me. I miss him which confuses me a little since we have spent so little time together. But before he left, we did talk on the phone nightly and I guess I miss our daily talks.
So much to go through right now. 11 days and it will all be over. I guess the healing will truly begin then.
